Written by Alli Price
A year or so ago I wrote a blog post on Leaving the Country with Daughter, not with Dad. It was all about the struggle I was experiencing with moving to Oz with my daughter and leaving her Dad behind.
Now it’s my turn. I am two days away from leaving the UK for Oz and my daughter will be staying with her Dad for three months. In the lead up, whenever I told anyone about the arrangements for my daughter’s care this year I was always greeted with the same question ‘Are you going to be okay with that?’
I was. If I was feeling sad, imagine how her Dad was feeling spending so much time away from her. I could only imagine. And then there was Amelie. In the three months preceding this trip she had become increasingly upset at being apart from her Dad and would often cry whilst looking at his picture, heart beaking stuff.
When we got to the UK airport the reunion between the two of them nearly made me cry. I was so happy that Amelie was so happy. So happy I was able to do this for them.
The following few days have been harder. I have basically been rejected by her 80% of the time – wanting to sit on Daddy’s knee, not mine, wanting to watch movies with Daddy, not me. Although I know she’s loving the fact that she’s near him again it’s hard when I know I’ll be leaving in a few days and can’t get a look in. All I want to do is cuddle my little girl as much as possible but all she wants are cuddles from Daddy.
So it’s a tough situation to be in – tough for all of us – and it’s not ever going to get any easier. We’ve all cried and now it’s my turn. I know I certainly will be when I have to force myself to walk away from my little girl and return home without her.
Cheers, Alli x